It's 2:42am as I sit here and write this. I'm up. Why am I up, you ask? It could be because I went to bed before 10pm, or it could be my mind won't stop racing from all of the thoughts I keep having about tonight/tomorrow.
I'm getting scared, anxious, nervous, happy, excited..a HUGE list of mixed emotions. I don't know what to expect. This time tomorrow, Thursday, I will be a mom and have another human being to care for.
Holy shit. Yes, this is all just sinking in now. I mean, I knew I would eventually have Rylee here, but everything flew by so incredibly fast.
I still remember
February 21, 2010. The day I found out & told Jeremy. Only 3 1/2 months after we got married; however, I wouldn't have it any other way. See, he is 34 so we thought we need to have a baby somewhat soon because we both don't want him to be in a wheelchair trying to care for a child. He didn't really ever want to "
start" trying, so we just banged and it happened. We're very lucky.
On this day, aunt flow should have showed up. I was nervous about taking a test the same day, but I did it anyways to ease my mind. I went to CVS and bought tests. I finished 1, and it was +..I started shaking. I had to take 2 more to ease my mind, of course all +.
I could not believe it.
I went to Target and bought Jeremy a little surprise.

He LOVES fishing.
So, today, Wednesday it's my last full day of being pregnant. I still cannot believe it! I am glad to say I have gained exactly 40 lbs. I stopped gaining in September; although, I did have a few high spikes in weight gain for a couple weeks. I think it was mostly due to all the swelling from preeclampsia, but since the swelling went down I haven't gained anymore. Yippy!
I hope my delivery/labor is fast & easy. Oh boy. Here we go!