Jobs...

I'm having a really hard time dealing with the fact that I may have to go back to work. It's not that I mind working, but I do not want to put her in daycare. Here's a few scenarios:

1) If I go back to Coke it will be December 16th. I will work 9am-6pm Monday-Friday. Jeremy will take her to daycare about 6-6:30am and then pick her up around 5:30pm. I will get home around 6:30pm everyday. Then it's time to cook dinner, take a shower, bathe her, feed her and it's time for bed around 8pm. That means I will get a whooping 1-2 hours with her. What is wrong with that picture? Someone else will be raising her, not me..not the person that should. Oh, and daycare does cost $800 a month. So after paying that and paying bills I will only bring home around $100-200 a month.

or

2) If I can find a restaurant job I would work 3-4 days a week, 5-6 hours a night. Jeremy would watch her at night while I work and I would go to school, mainly online. Problem? No one is hiring! Literally. I have went to Chilis, Outback, Mimis Cafe, Buca Di Beppo, and Hooters with no luck. I did go back to Carrabba's the other day and he told me to come back the beginning of December, so I will try Friday and (fingers crossed) he will let me come back. I see me going back there to be the only way I can get out of going back to Coke.

I am so aggravated with him that he's telling me I have to work. We would be okay if I didn't. We would have to re-prioritize how we spend money, but we could do it. He doesn't want to back down from spending what we do and buying what we do. He could buy cheaper jeans than from Buckle (and don't mistake me, I love Buckle and every pair of jeans I have are from there, but if I have to buy cheaper ones to be able to stay home..I will.) I think if I go back to Coke I am going to hold resentment against him and I don't want to do that.

I don't trust people, maybe that's my problem. And, no, we have no one else to watch her.

He thinks life's hard now? Wait until December 16th. I don't make him get up for night feedings now because he works & I understand that, but if I go back he WILL get up every other night with her and feed her. He says "If I get up at 1am I can't go back to sleep, but you can." Yeah? Well, too bad. It's going to change here soon. You will just have to get up at 1am and stay up then, not my problem. I feel bad for being like this, but I can't help it. He doesn't know what it's like for her to wake up at 3am and not want to go back to sleep. I do all of that now. I get up and go in the living room so he can still sleep. I don't even have a concept of time anymore.

I could go on and on about this, but i'll stop now.

Thanksgiving!

I have so much to be thankful for. My life is beyond blessed, but on with the good stuff..

We went to my moms today and helped cook. I LOVE homemade food. Everything we had was fresh and homemade; turkey, corn casserole, stuffing, gravy, mashed potatoes and sweet potato souffle. I'm stuffed to the rim!

Rylee was so cute

Then she decided to explode a big one..all over her, me, daddy and her bouncer.

Now she's passed out in her bouncer sleeping :) 

6 week pictures!

She loves sticking her tongue out.

Look at those big kissable lips!!!

And this is my adorable 18 month old niece!!

6 weeks

Technically, she will be 6 weeks tomorrow so I'm a day early.

As of Monday she weighs 9lbs 4oz (up from 7lbs 7oz at birth) and 21in (up from 19in.) It's so refreshing knowing she's gaining like she should since I'm breast feeding, I was having doubts. Doc said to keep doing whatever it is I'm doing and that's always nice to hear!

She's getting SO big! Most of her newborn clothes are getting too short and her head is growing so I can barely fit them over it! =( It makes me sad. I want her to stay little, but it will be exciting with all the new things she will learn and be able to do! Time is going incredibly fast and I'm not a fan of it.

We are still debating on my work situation. I do not want to go back to work and have to put her in daycare for a number of reasons:

1) She will get sick 24/7

2) I don't trust people enough to take care of her.

3) I don't want to leave her! (I know most moms don't so maybe this shouldn't be a "real" reason) 

4) I hate my job...okay highly dislike. 

5) It's $800 a month! WOW!

and the list goes on and on.....

We have until December 17th to make a final decision. 

Holiday Cards!

I love Shutterfly! They have awesome deals & you can get the neatest, ALL stuff you personalize for cheap. I am especially excited because they are doing 50 free holiday cards if you blog about them! All you have to do is go here. Before this year I wasn't a big Christmas card person, but now that we have our little bundle I am so excited to send Christmas cards out and show her off! =)

A few of my favorites from Shutterfly are:

The wall calendars. I made one for my desk and Jeremy's desk at work with our wedding pictures. I love looking at it everyday and seeing our amazing wedding!

The Christmas cards are so adorable this year! And so reasonably priced!! They are printed with good quality and you can't beat them.

The Christmas tags are so unique! You know you always go to Target, Wal-Mart, or wherever and get tags to put on presents. Now you can order these from Shutterfly and personalize it! SO adorable.

I love this card and I plan on using this for my Christmas cards to send out this year! I am so excited to send these out this year!

Daddys boat

This was Rylee's first time in daddy's boat. She looks so excited.

She weighs 8lbs 15oz as of today! 

Georgia

Georgia was fun! It was freezing (okay, freezing to me is anything below 60..ha ha, seriously) I'm a true Floridian! It was in the 30s/40s. The house we stayed in sucked pretty much. The pictures looked good, but when we got there it wasn't. The TV was like a 15", no lie. The view was amazing though.

 My silly little girl

Daddys girl fo sho!

See the small TV in the back?!?!?!

She definitely hated this hat. 

Then she started to like it :)

We went there because Jeremy fishes Bass tournaments. A $40,000 boat was up for grabs in this one. On day 1 he was leading the tournament with 21.95 total weight and a big bass of 6.90 lbs.

 

It was a 2 day tournament. On day 2 he ended up not doing so well. Needless to say, we didn't win the boat, but I'm still his proud wife! He came in 13th out of 150 and we walked away with some cash monies! Woo!

Shutterfly

Shutterfly is offering this awesome deal where you can get 50 free holiday cards if you write up a blog sharing this awesome news! Who doesn't want free holiday cards?? We all know how tight money can be sometimes. So, go write a blog and then go here and enter!!

Do it!

4 weeks!

We are finally back from Georgia! I have a few updates I'm planning to do, including a Georgia one. For now I will start with Rylee & myself.

Rylee will be 5 weeks on Thursday! Where has the time gone? It seriously has passed right by me. She is so darn cute. She does have a rash on her face. It was really bad in Georgia then last night when we came home I gave her a bath and it seemed to clear up. I don't know what it was from. I'm thinking using different laundry detergent. We shall see!

She seems to be doing better with sleeping! She's starting to stay up more during the day so she sleeps more at night! YAY! Last night she only woke up 2 times! I've been using my sound sheep and it puts her right to sleep. She fusses for 10 or so minutes then she's out. If you don't have a sound sheep (I don't know the "real" name of it) GO GET ONE!

She also loves my moby wrap! At first she hated it, but not anymore! yay! Don't mind my ugly mug.

 Almost back to normal!!

One of my best friends, Keri, had her baby last Wednesday. SO CUTE! She has a head full of hair and it's spiky! Rylee got to meet her first friend today.

I don't think I ever posted this video. This is what she does when sleeping!

Here I am!

I've noticed my blogs have been getting further & further apart. Shame on me. Having a new baby  is somewhat time consuming, who would have thought?! My lack of sleep was starting to get to me. We had been having a hard time getting her to sleep during the night. 

Jeremy thought he had found the trick. Putting her in the bouncer and rocking it. Yes, he has spoiled her. Last night we get to bed and he seriously puts the bouncer in the middle of the bed with her in it and rocks her to sleep. What a nice daddy. That only lasted 1 hour and then the one eyed monster (see why we call her that with the pics later) awoke! I feed her and sleep with her on the couch.

Today I figured why not try to put her on her stomach to sleep and see if this works. So I did and it worked! YES! I know, I know. You're not suppose to put babies on their stomach to sleep, but at this point I will do anything..well almost anything. I keep checking on her every minute or so..literally.

Saturday morning around 4am I get up to feed & change her. I put her on the changing table and she chokes a bit so I sit her up and she catches her breath. I lay her back down and she starts choking AGAIN, but this time is 100x worse. Her face turns red and she can't breathe. I scoop her up (with no diaper on because I was in the middle of changing her) and run into my bedroom to get her suction thing (I don't know the real name for this..) I turn the light on and wake Jeremy up..all while she is still choking and her eyes are puffy, and her poor little arms are flying everywhere. She's freaking out..right along with me. Thankfully, Jeremy was the calm one and suctioned whatever crap (it was almost mucous-y type stuff) she was choking on out of her nose and mouth. I'm still holding her..diaper-less and she decides to pee on me! It went all down my leg and on the floor. I tried catching it with my hand, but that didn't work. Silly girl. I thought I would be the calm one..but nope. She hasn't done it since..thank god. I'm praying she doesn't.

We are off to Georgia tonight until Sunday night..which is also our anniversary and Rylee's 1 month birthday! Party time :) Hopefully Jeremy wins this fishing tournament and we come home with a new boat. Praying time!

Of course I couldn't post without posting some new pics..

Everyone keeps saying Rylee looks like Jeremy. I'm not saying who is who, obviously Rylee is in the middle. Who do you say she looks like? The left or right?

This is why we call her the one eyed monster!

Ethan (Sisters baby) and Rylee. Exactly 6 weeks apart.

"My first Mary Janes"

Bath time

I know the quality of this pic sucks, but look at that smile!