1) I fear of something happening to Rylee.
I will be honest & tell y'all that I didn't think much about SIDS or any other horrifying accidents that could happen until after I had Rylee. Once she was here, I found a few blogs that were, unfortunately, documenting their experience with SIDS. I instantly became heartbroken because I could not imagine. Now with #2 I'm seriously buying every item out there that I can to hopefully help notify me if anything were to happen if, god forbid, #2 stopped breathing. It gives me chills thinking about it & I hope I never have to go through that.
2) I fear someone walking in my house & robbing us or something worse.
Any time I'm home alone, I dread it. Having Diesel helps a bit, but he acts like a guard dog until we open the door & then he runs and starts sniffing people everywhere. I hear about all of these stories where they're home alone & a robber breaks in & kills them. I'm so scared of that. We don't own a gun. Some days I want to get licensed & go buy one, but I'm scared that if this were to happen would I really use it? I don't know. I suppose I would if I or my family was in danger, but it's such a tough decision.
3) I fear of someone close to me passing away.
My grandparents are only getting older & older. I'm so scared that something is going to happen to one of them & I'm just not ready for it. Are you ever ready though? The last person to pass away that was close to me was my grandpa and I was 10- so it's been a long time. :/
I don't like thinking about fears.
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