This probably sounds so petty & I know a lot of moms that have gone through so, so, so much worse, but for me this was the hardest.
When Rylee was born she had pretty bad jaundice & we weren't allowed to be discharged until her levels came down. She had to sleep under the lights & pretty much stay under them unless she was nursing. When they told me this I literally broke down. I remember just crying, crying, crying & not wanting to talk to or see anyone.
To see her twitch & squirm and me not be able to snuggle with her was so, so hard. Thank god she only had to be under it for 24 hours. It was the longest 24 hours of my entire life.